5.8.14

Dear Vance (prt. 3)

Dear Vance-                                                                                                                                     8/5/14
I think about you constantly. Like even more than constantly. I imagine you with me, all the time. Maybe, because of this, it's not so crazy that I write notes to you. I'd say "you could almost expect it" except for you're not really here. The good news is that I've started to talk to God almost as much as I talk to you. That's a lot better than it was when I was talking to you more than God. Part of me wants to bring all the notes to you to your mom but I'm worried about what that will do to her. I just want you to promise me that you're looking out for Kayson, wherever it is you guys are. I didn't get the opportunity to know him so I only hope that you'll take this opportunity for the both of us. I've been thinking and maybe we were supposed to get married. After all, I did get my patriarchal blessing while you were still here and you weren't supposed to kill yourself. You were high and that only invites the devil in. But God had to have known what you were going to do, so maybe it's someone else for me. Which scares the shit out of me. I've been praying though, and I was told that no, I don't already know him. So there goes the option of Bubba. Gosh darn it. This only means that my someday someone could be a total babe. Of course, I'll think he's a babe no matter what.

                                                                 ♥ me
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Quotes

a real woman can do it all by herself, but a real man won't let her.
i would rather die of passion than die of boredom.
a bad attitude is like a flat tire; you can't go anywhere till you change it.
your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul.
what comes easy, won't last and what lasts, won't come easy.
DEAR GOD, IF TODAY I LOSE MY HOPE PLEASE REMIND ME THAT YOUR PLANS ARE BETTER THAN MY DREAM.
today is the first blank page of a 365 book. write a good one.
listen to your heart, even if it takes you all the way to California.
i mean, i could have done my homework today, but i also could have committed murder. so there's that.
it is what it is.
at the beach, life is different; time doesn't move hour to hour, but rather, mood to moment. we move with the currents, play by the tides, and follow the sun.
its not whether you win or lose. its whether or not you have the balls to fight.
everytime i fall, i get back up again.
you dont got to lie, just keep going faster babe, faster babe, why? im on your side, just keep going faster babe, faster bye bye...you just gotta speed a little faster when you drive.
it's all a part of bein young in the two thousand somethin
i don't believe in love at first sight, i believe in makin love tonight.
love notes, written on the streets in chalk, she's a run away train, with a strut in her walk, broken glass in the gutter, yelling at your mother, on the pay phone saying you'll be back by the summer, she's with me now mama, she's with me now mama.
before youre old and wise, gotta be young and dumb.
so we give em a reason, come and catch us, but dont hold your breath.
TELL MY OLD LIFE THAT I'M LEAVIN, I'M LEAVIN RIGHT NOW.