5.10.15

If you really knew me,

you'd know that I'm not what I seem. 
If you really knew me, you'd know that for the most part I'm all talk.
If you really knew me, you'd know that living with this brain injury is new for me too.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm doing my best. I quite often seem like I know what I'm doing when really, I have no fucking idea. 
If you really knew me, you'd know that it's really hard for me to control my language and for that I'm sorry because I know it bothers you.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm scared out of my mind that I'm going to end up alone.
If you really knew me, you'd know that now I'm even more scared because I really thought we would work.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I just spent the last four hours asking my dad what he thought I should do because I really REALLY like you. 
If you really knew me, you'd know that he told me to just move on, there'd be others. 
If you really knew me, you'd know that I don't want to. 
If you really knew me, you'd know that our definitions of faith need to be different because we haven't experienced the same things. 
If you really knew me, you'd know that I never meant to offend you.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm not going to act one way to make us work. 
We're going to work because we want to.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I can love the super geeky things.
You would just need to explain them to me.
Not because they're geeky, but because of my brain injury. That's what I was talking about when I said a lot of give and some take. Well half of what I meant. I was talking about give&take on my part. Give you all of my patience and love and then I could steal a kiss before home.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm trying. I thought you were okay with my language.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm trying.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm sorry.
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Quotes

a real woman can do it all by herself, but a real man won't let her.
i would rather die of passion than die of boredom.
a bad attitude is like a flat tire; you can't go anywhere till you change it.
your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul.
what comes easy, won't last and what lasts, won't come easy.
DEAR GOD, IF TODAY I LOSE MY HOPE PLEASE REMIND ME THAT YOUR PLANS ARE BETTER THAN MY DREAM.
today is the first blank page of a 365 book. write a good one.
listen to your heart, even if it takes you all the way to California.
i mean, i could have done my homework today, but i also could have committed murder. so there's that.
it is what it is.
at the beach, life is different; time doesn't move hour to hour, but rather, mood to moment. we move with the currents, play by the tides, and follow the sun.
its not whether you win or lose. its whether or not you have the balls to fight.
everytime i fall, i get back up again.
you dont got to lie, just keep going faster babe, faster babe, why? im on your side, just keep going faster babe, faster bye bye...you just gotta speed a little faster when you drive.
it's all a part of bein young in the two thousand somethin
i don't believe in love at first sight, i believe in makin love tonight.
love notes, written on the streets in chalk, she's a run away train, with a strut in her walk, broken glass in the gutter, yelling at your mother, on the pay phone saying you'll be back by the summer, she's with me now mama, she's with me now mama.
before youre old and wise, gotta be young and dumb.
so we give em a reason, come and catch us, but dont hold your breath.
TELL MY OLD LIFE THAT I'M LEAVIN, I'M LEAVIN RIGHT NOW.