19.7.14

I feel

I feel like he gets me. We all fall into this category at one point or another. Except for I fall into it like 50 million times every day. Last night on twitter, one kid asked me who I was and I got real for a sec and said I was still trying to figure that out. For all we know, I could be that kid's best friend in disguise. I also feel like you could apply this situation to anyone. That kid that's been your best friend since before you were born, could not be your best friend after all. All it takes is a big something to find out who's really there for you. Before I got in my accident, Asher Puriri was my best friend, and after, she wasn't. I still love her, but it just wasn't the same. Now she's off being an Aggie with all of her rugby friends. She graduated from high school the year before I did, with the class I should have been in. It takes something like that to find out who your friends are.
On another subject, I've made it pretty clear that, even if I could go back and do the day of my accident over, I probably wouldn't do a thing different, right? I was trying to tell my mom that last night, and she proceeded to lecture me about how I "need to stop telling myself that because, while it may seem like no biggie to you, how do I think it affected me and the family?" Like okay mom, while you were sleeping in your own bed, I was in some weird-ass Posey bed, which wasn't that comfy, and had me zipped in like I was some sort of circus animal that they had to keep from hurting others and/or myself. You and the family were the last thing on my mind. Relearning to walk was no cake walk either. Like define "no biggie" for me, mom, cause I don't even think you know what that means. If I knew then that I'd get T-boned, get a TBI, shatter my pelvis and break my tib/fib, maybe I'd do things a little different, but I wouldn't make it so I didn't learn.
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a real woman can do it all by herself, but a real man won't let her.
i would rather die of passion than die of boredom.
a bad attitude is like a flat tire; you can't go anywhere till you change it.
your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul.
what comes easy, won't last and what lasts, won't come easy.
DEAR GOD, IF TODAY I LOSE MY HOPE PLEASE REMIND ME THAT YOUR PLANS ARE BETTER THAN MY DREAM.
today is the first blank page of a 365 book. write a good one.
listen to your heart, even if it takes you all the way to California.
i mean, i could have done my homework today, but i also could have committed murder. so there's that.
it is what it is.
at the beach, life is different; time doesn't move hour to hour, but rather, mood to moment. we move with the currents, play by the tides, and follow the sun.
its not whether you win or lose. its whether or not you have the balls to fight.
everytime i fall, i get back up again.
you dont got to lie, just keep going faster babe, faster babe, why? im on your side, just keep going faster babe, faster bye bye...you just gotta speed a little faster when you drive.
it's all a part of bein young in the two thousand somethin
i don't believe in love at first sight, i believe in makin love tonight.
love notes, written on the streets in chalk, she's a run away train, with a strut in her walk, broken glass in the gutter, yelling at your mother, on the pay phone saying you'll be back by the summer, she's with me now mama, she's with me now mama.
before youre old and wise, gotta be young and dumb.
so we give em a reason, come and catch us, but dont hold your breath.
TELL MY OLD LIFE THAT I'M LEAVIN, I'M LEAVIN RIGHT NOW.