17.7.15

if i disappear

will you look for me?
or will it be her that looks for me?
if im being honest
if i disappear
i kinda hope no one will find me
but at the same time,
if i have to be found
eventually
i want it to be him that finds me
if i have a him
i dont know
does anyone?
i really dont think so
like +Kyle Nelson when did you know your wifey was the one?
people tell me that im too young
to be worrying about this
but all my friends are getting married
and im not
like my one friend Burgon was engaged
the whole time she was in high school
as in she just graduated
this year
and was married
a few months later
i grew up thinking
that i would be married young
but jokes
because now we dont know
if i even ever will
which
in case you were wondering
is shit for your self esteem
to have your mom say those words to you
like what the fuck?
meanwhile
my mom goes through
a few
different guys
and im just
thinking that
my future someone better be
a mother fucking babe
because
thats what i deserve
after all the
bullshit ive gone through
but you dont say such things
out loud
but ill be damned if i really give a crap
about 'socially correct' stuff
so here i am
im still here
saying all the socially incorrect things
but
im just letting you into my head
and see my fears
maybe
i am crazy
because this post was supposed to
be about
if i disappear...
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a real woman can do it all by herself, but a real man won't let her.
i would rather die of passion than die of boredom.
a bad attitude is like a flat tire; you can't go anywhere till you change it.
your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul.
what comes easy, won't last and what lasts, won't come easy.
DEAR GOD, IF TODAY I LOSE MY HOPE PLEASE REMIND ME THAT YOUR PLANS ARE BETTER THAN MY DREAM.
today is the first blank page of a 365 book. write a good one.
listen to your heart, even if it takes you all the way to California.
i mean, i could have done my homework today, but i also could have committed murder. so there's that.
it is what it is.
at the beach, life is different; time doesn't move hour to hour, but rather, mood to moment. we move with the currents, play by the tides, and follow the sun.
its not whether you win or lose. its whether or not you have the balls to fight.
everytime i fall, i get back up again.
you dont got to lie, just keep going faster babe, faster babe, why? im on your side, just keep going faster babe, faster bye bye...you just gotta speed a little faster when you drive.
it's all a part of bein young in the two thousand somethin
i don't believe in love at first sight, i believe in makin love tonight.
love notes, written on the streets in chalk, she's a run away train, with a strut in her walk, broken glass in the gutter, yelling at your mother, on the pay phone saying you'll be back by the summer, she's with me now mama, she's with me now mama.
before youre old and wise, gotta be young and dumb.
so we give em a reason, come and catch us, but dont hold your breath.
TELL MY OLD LIFE THAT I'M LEAVIN, I'M LEAVIN RIGHT NOW.