9.7.15

you wont read this

if the world worked in my favor, you would never read this. but. the world doesnt work in my favor (and ive got the scars to prove it) and you probably check my blog every so often. ideally, you arent even aware that i have a blog and so how would you even know to read this? so were back to my title: "you wont read this" i could say all of the things that im just dying to say to you. so i think i will. thing1: i love you. thing2: what the hell were you thinking? lying pointblank to me like that and then dropping off the face of the interweb for months and months and then just randomly emailing me a while ago, like it was no big deal, but then when i emailed you back (weird that i thought we could have an actual conversation) you decide were back to not talking again? thing3: what the fuck is going on with you and Megan? because on 12/23/14 you told me you guys had just broken up like a month ago, but then on Christmas day, you tell me that this was some weiner (my words, not yours) you went to school with and youre still dating Megan and that you got a new email. what? did you forget that we, as in, you&me, went to school together? that everyone who went to school with us knew who i was and not to fuck with me? did you forget that im kind of a big deal? miracle kid, remember? thing4: my good word, i am so pissed at you. and now youre all ill think about for a few weeks. remember how i was supposed to email you on the 23rd of every month and tell you how many months we have left? remember how i moved on and that hasnt happened once? remember how i keep saying im over you? but then ill think of you randomly and we get to start this all over again. not that you would know because you wont read this.
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a real woman can do it all by herself, but a real man won't let her.
i would rather die of passion than die of boredom.
a bad attitude is like a flat tire; you can't go anywhere till you change it.
your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul.
what comes easy, won't last and what lasts, won't come easy.
DEAR GOD, IF TODAY I LOSE MY HOPE PLEASE REMIND ME THAT YOUR PLANS ARE BETTER THAN MY DREAM.
today is the first blank page of a 365 book. write a good one.
listen to your heart, even if it takes you all the way to California.
i mean, i could have done my homework today, but i also could have committed murder. so there's that.
it is what it is.
at the beach, life is different; time doesn't move hour to hour, but rather, mood to moment. we move with the currents, play by the tides, and follow the sun.
its not whether you win or lose. its whether or not you have the balls to fight.
everytime i fall, i get back up again.
you dont got to lie, just keep going faster babe, faster babe, why? im on your side, just keep going faster babe, faster bye bye...you just gotta speed a little faster when you drive.
it's all a part of bein young in the two thousand somethin
i don't believe in love at first sight, i believe in makin love tonight.
love notes, written on the streets in chalk, she's a run away train, with a strut in her walk, broken glass in the gutter, yelling at your mother, on the pay phone saying you'll be back by the summer, she's with me now mama, she's with me now mama.
before youre old and wise, gotta be young and dumb.
so we give em a reason, come and catch us, but dont hold your breath.
TELL MY OLD LIFE THAT I'M LEAVIN, I'M LEAVIN RIGHT NOW.