28.10.15

I'm pretty sure...

From what I can remember, pretty sure you and the first boy I ever liked are both named James. Pretty sure that means something. Probably doesn't mean anything to you, or any of the people that read this and I'm not big into "oh that's a sign" bullcrap that some of my family is into. Probably doesn't mean anything at all. But there's that little voice in the back of my head that's saying yes, but what if it does? And this is where I'm thinking well son of a nutcracker, if it is a sign, a sign saying what? Because it didn't work out for you and the first James, it probably won't work the second time around either? Cuss. Am I just over thinking it? Probably? Are you starting to understand why and how I'm crazy now? This is how I get when I have days off. Lock me in a room with nothing but my thoughts for a few days and I will do one of two things, I will sleep for three days or I'll show you the crazy lady you want. Because I've realized that if you show people what they want to see, life goes easier, but if you show them something they would never expect in their wildest dreams, the flip side of the same coin, that's when they freak out and scratch their heads. Trust me, I'd know. Actually it's not I would know, it's that I DO know. Example: me being 90% functioning when most doctors were expecting <50%. Again, I say, tell me I can't do something and then you sit back and watch me do an A+ job. Here's a tissue, for you to wipe your face after you realize just how wrong you were. Of course, while some of it was me, I can only attribute how and where I am to God and Christ. Christ descended to a point that's lower than what we think is our lowest point making it so that we don't have to. I love you James Walter West. So much. Marry me, sooner rather than later.

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a real woman can do it all by herself, but a real man won't let her.
i would rather die of passion than die of boredom.
a bad attitude is like a flat tire; you can't go anywhere till you change it.
your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul.
what comes easy, won't last and what lasts, won't come easy.
DEAR GOD, IF TODAY I LOSE MY HOPE PLEASE REMIND ME THAT YOUR PLANS ARE BETTER THAN MY DREAM.
today is the first blank page of a 365 book. write a good one.
listen to your heart, even if it takes you all the way to California.
i mean, i could have done my homework today, but i also could have committed murder. so there's that.
it is what it is.
at the beach, life is different; time doesn't move hour to hour, but rather, mood to moment. we move with the currents, play by the tides, and follow the sun.
its not whether you win or lose. its whether or not you have the balls to fight.
everytime i fall, i get back up again.
you dont got to lie, just keep going faster babe, faster babe, why? im on your side, just keep going faster babe, faster bye bye...you just gotta speed a little faster when you drive.
it's all a part of bein young in the two thousand somethin
i don't believe in love at first sight, i believe in makin love tonight.
love notes, written on the streets in chalk, she's a run away train, with a strut in her walk, broken glass in the gutter, yelling at your mother, on the pay phone saying you'll be back by the summer, she's with me now mama, she's with me now mama.
before youre old and wise, gotta be young and dumb.
so we give em a reason, come and catch us, but dont hold your breath.
TELL MY OLD LIFE THAT I'M LEAVIN, I'M LEAVIN RIGHT NOW.