30.3.16

I'm here

I am here.
I'm here in this new house, that's closer to a lot of things than my old one was. 
I'm here, still wearing the same clothes I wore yesterday. 
My moving clothes. 
The clothes I answered the door in that the shirt has orange marker all over it. 
I'm here, taking the plate of cookies that the teachers made us for mutual. 
I'm here, eating one of those cookies, offering Emma half, to which she just breaks off part of and says this is all I need, and then eats my last third of a cookie. 
I'm here, shaking my head at sisters. 
I have 6 of them, so I'd know. 
I'm here, missing you, who is not here. 
I'm here, counting the days until I can see you again. Which is two, in case you forgot. 
I'm here, kind of hungry but we don't really have any food. 
I'm here wondering how long I can live off of fruit snacks for before I run into a diahrreas since Easters problem. 
And then I'm here wondering if we even have that many things of fruit snacks. 
I'm here idly wondering how many days I can stay in this pair of clothes for before it becomes a problem. 
I'm here thinking about you. 
When am I not, really. 
I'm here remembering how happy you make me. 
I'm here wanting you to be here. 
You're not here. 
I'm here in my room wondering what that noise was. 
I'm here coming to the conclusion that I don't care enough to go find out. 
I'm hungry.
I'll go see what we have (or don't have) to eat. 
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Quotes

a real woman can do it all by herself, but a real man won't let her.
i would rather die of passion than die of boredom.
a bad attitude is like a flat tire; you can't go anywhere till you change it.
your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul.
what comes easy, won't last and what lasts, won't come easy.
DEAR GOD, IF TODAY I LOSE MY HOPE PLEASE REMIND ME THAT YOUR PLANS ARE BETTER THAN MY DREAM.
today is the first blank page of a 365 book. write a good one.
listen to your heart, even if it takes you all the way to California.
i mean, i could have done my homework today, but i also could have committed murder. so there's that.
it is what it is.
at the beach, life is different; time doesn't move hour to hour, but rather, mood to moment. we move with the currents, play by the tides, and follow the sun.
its not whether you win or lose. its whether or not you have the balls to fight.
everytime i fall, i get back up again.
you dont got to lie, just keep going faster babe, faster babe, why? im on your side, just keep going faster babe, faster bye bye...you just gotta speed a little faster when you drive.
it's all a part of bein young in the two thousand somethin
i don't believe in love at first sight, i believe in makin love tonight.
love notes, written on the streets in chalk, she's a run away train, with a strut in her walk, broken glass in the gutter, yelling at your mother, on the pay phone saying you'll be back by the summer, she's with me now mama, she's with me now mama.
before youre old and wise, gotta be young and dumb.
so we give em a reason, come and catch us, but dont hold your breath.
TELL MY OLD LIFE THAT I'M LEAVIN, I'M LEAVIN RIGHT NOW.