| sort of broken |
kind of there
mostly just broken though
i mean, my heart is still there
its just that its gone through a lot of hurricane-esque things
should have been condemned
long ago
but do you realize how stubborn i am?
do you even?
do you need me to make a cute lil list for you?
okay.
it all started with the year 2012
some would say that was a shit year for me
but its all about perspective
i mean, in some aspects, it was a totally shit year
Janury 1st, Vance killed himself
then March 3rd, my life was ripped to shreds (quite literally)
then we go a few months where we just didnt know (if i would make it, if i would walk, if i would talk, etc)
July 21st, i was discharged and that was happy
a month later, i go back to school, with a walker and a personal aide
then, 3 days before my fucking birthday, my grandma dies of lung cancer
then i have the most boring New Years ever.
then a few months later, i have the whole Preston debacle
then all my friends graduate without me
KIRSTEN'S HEART-TRAUMA
a) Vance (my first (only?) real love)
2) Brayden
c or 3 or whatever) being Tboned by a car at least 2x the size of mine
next) waking up and being told you pretty much ended your life when you ran that stop sign
5) being told you wont walk or talk or freaking function on your own
ever again.
f) proving all the haters wrong
g) living without Vance (it kills me. every damn day)
8) not being able to drive (might as well have just let me die)
9) i can handle the 2 previous on their own. by themselves.
9a) making me handle them both together?
9b) thats just rude.
a) Vance (my first (only?) real love)
2) Brayden
c or 3 or whatever) being Tboned by a car at least 2x the size of mine
next) waking up and being told you pretty much ended your life when you ran that stop sign
5) being told you wont walk or talk or freaking function on your own
ever again.
f) proving all the haters wrong
g) living without Vance (it kills me. every damn day)
8) not being able to drive (might as well have just let me die)
9) i can handle the 2 previous on their own. by themselves.
9a) making me handle them both together?
9b) thats just rude.
anyways this is what my heart would look like. if it were a home.
and now, i have no idea why God even bothered to save my life
because i have no idea what im supposed to do with my life
which, in case you didnt know, sucks.
i feel like im supposed to be doing SOMETHING
other than just going stir crazy in my house
that reminds me, i need to email Kyle.
